Hey. Train Wreck. This isn’t your station, move along!
Today was one of many days where I stopped what I was doing and thought to myself, What the %#*! am I doing? Yeah, I had one of those moments today. I couldn’t sleep last night…I literally laid there with my eye mask on trying to lay still while listening to ocean and thunderstorm sounds on my Alexa. I had so much on my mind so I thought I’d share on here in hopes to help some of you that don’t have ADD better understand how our minds tick sometimes.
Here we go:
I wonder why it’s taking the builder so long to tell me when they’re going to replace my damn tree?! I’d like to start planning what I’m going to plant around it for Spring but not until the tree is replaced.
I wonder if my youngest missed me while he was at his dads house this weekend?
What all do I need to still buy for our Spring Break Vacation next week to Park City, Utah?
It’s been over a month since Office Depot was supposed to refund me for a double charge of over $700…what’s taking so long?
Should I sell my golf cart so I can have more garage space again, or keep it?
Realistically how long can I go without finishing up the small space of peel and stick wallpaper in the kids bathroom? I really don’t want to mess with it anymore.
Am I really about to have a teenager next month?! Wow, time has flown it makes me sad.
Of course I’m always thinking about my upcoming mediation regarding adding a temporary injunction to our current orders.
I need help help customizing my website and adding the links so I can get paid more $$$ for clicks.
Let’s not forget getting sucked into a TikTok zone for a couple of hours as well. I can’t get enough of the cleaning and organization hacks.
Did I track my daily expenses in my budget planner?
I need to make a list of all the items from Rebel Belle that has sold at the boutique so I can get paid. Vacation money!!!
Is life ever going to be normal again?
Did I switch the laundry over?
Crap, I think I forgot to lock my truck too?!
These are just a handful of what was on my mind for hours last night. It’s like I can’t go to sleep unless I solve it or just wait until the day starts and I get distracted by my real job. Individuals that don’t understand how ADD/ADHD process things can become very frustrated with us. I promise, we’re not meaning to be all over the place…it’s just how it is. On top of the thoughts, I feel like living in a world of COVID for the past year has given me severe anxiety at times. I set my personal timer to go off at random times during the day to give myself a break yet I find myself taking a break from my job to do chores around the house. In the past year I have customized my home in so many ways. I’ve upgraded the living room, dining room, office area, furniture, one of my kiddos bedroom, their bathroom, organized the junk drawers, fridge, pantry, closets and of course cleaned the garage and attic out numerous times.
Whew, I’m overwhelmed just writing about it all. I can accomplish so much in a short period of time that it’s scary and not normal. It’s a blessing and a curse and I do my best to try to keep things under control. I think that’s enough for owning my chaos while still wearing my crown. Until next time!
